Unscrewing the Brain

Last time I mentioned this, I had spoken too soon.

A few months ago I finally sought a doctor’s help for my anxiety. I was having panic attacks, experiencing agoraphobia (the irrational fear of agoras), and basically refused to travel, even for fun.

They say it’s typical for anxiety to start when a person is in their late 20’s. That was the case for me.

I tried to use Jedi mind tricks, tried controlling my circumstances (leading to more agoraphobia), and tried using diet to feel better.

The doctor prescribed a tiny dose of an anti-anxiety medicine (for daily use). It’s half of the smallest does they make.

The first 2 months I was on it, I actually felt worse. I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t stop grinding my teeth even when I was aware I was doing it, and none of my symptoms were better.

After the first couple of months, it started to really kick in.

I’m happy to say that I feel better now than I have in years. I’m sure I could still manage a panic attack if I had the right circumstances, but at least in my day-to-day life, I feel much better.

It’s a good feeling.

Tonight, Jenna and I are going to the movies. I couldn’t have done that 6 months ago.