Should I Stay Or Should I Go?

Yeah, my lunch break today was fun. I drove home in a rainstorm, stood in the yard with Abby in a rainstorm. Waited for her to produce a “fecal sample” in a rainstorm, picked up the “sample” in a proprietary “sample cup” in a rainstorm, then went to the vet to drop off said sample. Abby loved every second of it, which is impressive considering that she has worms crawling around in her intestines. I guess dogs don’t worry about things like that. If it were MY intestines, I’d be taking a gasoline enema, and lighting that sucker. No worms allowed! Ok, enough of this incredi-nasty topic.

In the past few weeks, I’ve had multiple job offers. I’m not looking, they have just “fallen into my lap” as it were. The thing is, a couple of the offers could be very lucrative… one that I have a specific number would be about a 70% raise over my current salary. Dang! The other one is in that “you should come work for us and we’ll make it worth your while” stage. Another offer I got would mean moving to Texas, which would not make me happy. So there are really only two on the table that sound good.
Now, we can’t forget that my current employer has a very generous ESOP plan. It basically contributes 40% of my income each year for free. But that still means that the other offer is a 30% raise. I also have to think about benefits, because the benefits here are pretty good. But certainly not something that a 30% raise couldn’t cover. And I’m at an age where money right now is more important than money for retirement. I mean, I’m having trouble paying for the medical expenses for my puppy for Incredipete’s sake. It’s check to check.

But the other side of the coin is this: I’ve been with my current employer for over 8 years, and there may be some unforseen opportunities here. That’s a lot of years to give up, not to mention that they have always been supportive of my educational process, and just generally are good people to work with. So would I be a bad person to leave the nest? Probably so. Would it be unfair to leave after all of the support during my schooling? Probably so. And would I be giving up future opportunities (albeit unknown) if I left? Of course…

And yes, I’ll admit, I’m fairly bored with my current slot. I try to make the most of it and learn what I can, but what I really enjoy is shaking things up. Once I shake things up and make changes, and then see the success, I’m pretty much through. I can’t just “administer” something that’s already set up and works great. It bores the crap out of me. I work best under pressure, and when the deck is really stacked against me. I have a very strong interest in project management, which will be a focus in my MBA, and I think it’s for that very reason. I love to make something daunting work out well, and then go on to the next thing. I don’t want to manage the construction of a hotel and then RUN the hotel…. I want to go build another one…

Does any of this make sense to you people?

So I am left in a quandry. It’s hard for me to turn my nose up at a massive increase in salary. Who wouldn’t love to have a couple of good offers on the table? And lord knows, I could use the money. And for all I know, the opportunities here may not really exist, except in my own head. And chances are, if there are opportunities at my current company, it would involve relocating to some less desirable part of the country. On the other hand, I love this business, and I really like the people I work with.
The good news is, I don’t have to make any snap decisions. I’ve got several months to think about things. But at some point, I’m going to have to decide. So I might as well have it figured out before that time comes, right? Right.

Wow, that was heavy.

Am I the only person in the world that can’t drive when it rains? I mean, I feel completely blind when I’m driving on the highway in the rain. The mist from the trucks, the inevitable buildup of fog on the windows. It sucks. Not to mention that I crashed my Grand Am by sliding off the road in the rain. So I live in constant fear of hydroplaning, even though my new car seems to have duct tape tires.
People always make fun of the people that can’t drive in the rain. Yeah, I’m one of those people that speeds like crazy when it’s nice out, and then goes 15 under when it’s raining. I become a granny. People honk at me, and I just don’t even care, because I’d rather be alive than liked. Today on my way back from the vet, I saw 3 cars over in a ditch on top of each other. One of them was an SUV that had passed me going about 80. He had gotten there several minutes ahead of me, but I’m pretty sure I made it to my destination before he did. I pointed and laughed, and I couldn’t help but delight in their misfortune. I’m sure I’m going to hell for that, but it’ll be worth it.

In other news, my stupid truck that I’m turning back in to Dodge on September 1st, has decided to bleed me one more time, and is sitting dead in my driveway. The battery is toast, and I just hope that it isn’t anything more serious. It jump starts fine, so I’m pretty sure that’s all it is. Another 50$ down the drain.

Till tomorrow,