Last One About Abby

Well, today I have much to talk about. Let’s start with a few new pictures of Abby:

She is quite the little lady. She has already decided to only go potty outside, so she is ok to wander the house, and to sleep in the master bedroom. I moved her bed up to my room last night, however, she only stayed in it for about 2 minutes. Next thing I knew, she was up in my bed with me. She stayed there all night, and didn’t make a peep, so I figured it was ok. This morning when I got out of bed, she moved over into my space because it was warm. Then she sneezed all over my pillow… not good.

What can I say? I’m hooked.

So anyway, last night was the Josh Groban concert. Now, before you start yelling at me for being a loser, let me finish. My dad bought tickets for the whole family, and so we met up and went out together. You may think it’s pathetic, but I have to say, thirty world-class musicians, a ten million dollar stage setup, and a classically trained singer add up to one hella concert. The opening act, William Joseph was great, too. He is a classically trained pianist, and he had an awesome band with him.

So no, it wasn’t Metallica. It wasn’t Aerosmith. But it was pure, unfettered musical talent, times ten. Josh’s voice is so pure, he really doesn’t even need the orchestra behind him. He’d be able to pull off the concert on his own.

The best part of the concert is that when he told the audience that he was about to do the final song, a lot of people got up to “beat the crowd” in the parking lot. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. etc.

Well, they got theirs. First of all, he ended with one of his big hits “You raise me up,” so right off the bat, the people that left missed out. However, when he got done, the standing ovation lasted so long that he came back out alone, and did Paul Simon’s “America.” Just him and the piano… how freaking cool is that?! After that, he got another standing ovation so long that the entire band came back out for a second encore performance, and he did another one of his hits. So there… you people that left early… you know who you are.


Thanks. I’m glad to have that off my chest.

So onto something a little more personal that has been eating at me.

Early this year, I was burning the candle at both ends, and in the middle. I had switched shifts to work nights so I could take classes during the day. So I was working from 4 PM until 3 AM, and from 2 PM until 10:30 PM on Saturdays. Then, during the day, I was going to class Monday through Thursday from 9 AM until 3:15 PM. The only free time I had was the time I spent in the car, or doing homework. To make matters worse, I was in the process of buying my first house, which as those of you that have gone through it know, it takes a lot of work and time.

So in April, I was working and schooling on that schedule, and juggling homework with my house purchase. Then, the advising office at school told me I needed to apply for the MBA program to insure I was accepted early enough. So I started studying for the GMAT, one of the admissions requirements. I knew I had to have a minimum of 550 on the GMAT, which I know doesn’t sound that hard, but believe me when you haven’t slept in 4 months, it’s pretty hard. I studied for about a month, and finally took it. I scored high enough, so that was another thing under my belt. I closed on my house, moved in, took finals, took the GMAT, graduated, switched back to the day shift, then two weeks later….

….I had a nervous breakdown.

Not the kind where you cry in your pillow for a while. The kind where I was unable to function. I couldn’t get out of bed. I didn’t want to do anything, go anywhere, eat anything, talk to anyone… I started acting totally irrational, and exhibiting behavior that people who know me would call “very strange.”

I’m not trying to make excuses for how I was acting, but to some extent, I was nutso.

Anyway, that said, it got to the point where I was physically ill, and my boss saw me one morning, and he said “Incredipete, if you’re sick, why don’t you go home.” That was very nice of him, so I took him up on it. Little did I know that leaving to have more unsupervised “alone time” was a horrible idea. I went home and pulled into the garage and closed the garage door. Then I just sat there, not wanting to move.

Fortunately for me, I have some very good friends. Jennyanydots was there for me in my time of need. I was sitting there, and she called. I started breaking down, and she told me that she’d meet me for lunch, so thank god, I went back into town and met with her. I told her I couldn’t explain my behavior. There was no reason to be upset. On the contrary, I should be happier than ever, because I’ve just finished accomplishing so many of my longterm goals.

She told me I needed to go see the doctor, and I figured she was probably right. I made an appointment for the next day. The doctor did some tests, and then started asking me about what I’d been doing for the past few months. Apparently my bloodwork came back dangerously weird. She told me that my body was whacked out because I’d been going on adrenalin for so long, that my body was overproducing adrenalin at an alarming rate, and it was little wonder I felt so freaking horrible.

She gave me medicine, which naturally made me very sick for several days with symptoms ranging from nausea to insomnia. But within a week, I felt better than ever, and life was back to normal.

The reason I bring this up is that I have a bit of a chip on my shoulder. People that should have know better decided to speculate and run with it. When I came back, there were rumors flying everywhere that I hated my job, and that I was gone for the two days because I was doing job interviews, and/or I was afraid to do a termination that was done while I was gone. Of course, I didn’t feel like I needed to discuss my medical details with the world at the time, but hey, maybe I should have so people wouldn’t have felt compelled to fill in the gaps with their feeble minds. To those that made things up without getting the straight scoop from me, “thanks for being so supportive in my time of need.”

Thankfully, my boss was not one of those people. He even called me over the weekend to make sure I was ok. He did the termination himself so I wouldn’t have to worry about it when I came back. Jennyanydots called several times to make sure everything was ok. My friend Stephanie kept asking how I was doing. I guess when you are down you find out who your real friends are.

And just for the record, I am A-OK now, and I feel great. At my last checkup, everything checked out just fine. I’m finally really enjoying all of those accomplishments, and having lots of fun. The new house, the new degree, the new car, the new dog, the Master’s program to look forward to… it’s all good.

  43 comments for “Last One About Abby

  1. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Gracey Yes I agree people who leave befor the show is over are lame and very rude.

  2. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Jackie Ok Wendy, got your point step away from the keyboard. heh heh…

  3. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Wendy That makes 40! Damn Incredipete, two entries in a row with 40+ comments. I am impressed…..

  4. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Wendy All I have to say is thea is a good one. Getting off while some other winch gives your man a lap dance. What the eff? That would excite me not! You know what it would do to me? Piss me the fuck off, that’s what. I ain’t into the sharing. I will kill a bitch!

  5. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea k, check my shit, the first few are gonna b practice. ps… your welcome, you’ve been one of my favs since I first came across D some time ago.

  6. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete You’ve been my biggest fan from day 1. I’m just glad I will finally get to read your diary!

  7. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea Thanks sunshine, don’t know where I’d be without you babe… I’m touched.

  8. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete thea, look at my profile… I listed you as a fav, and put in a comment for you… 😉

  9. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea Hey,… what’s with the other Thea going all lower case on Dusty’s page? I’m almost offended. No, … not really. But dude, that is like totally my thing, grrr. Sorry, I guess I’m not good with the identity conflict.

  10. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Congrats, thea, on your meanmommy site. Please feel free to use my comments as a forum to discuss your entries. I’m glad you’re finally among the “sited” people.

  11. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Roger Don’t worry Incredipete, the office rumour mill is there to keep everyone ill-informed. I was off for a couple of sets with a chest infection, and most people thought I was meant to be off for a month at least. Where did that come from?? Good to see you’re back on the mend though, just try to take it a bit easier, OK.

  12. HRT
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: HRT Good start thee, you’re well on your way kid. And I’d talk to the Incredinator. He’s probably got the most expertise round these here parts.

  13. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea I need your help… Me not sure how to work this new – fangled pos.

  14. HRT
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: HRT I can honestly say that I am not familiar with Josh Groban or Kenny Chesney (though the name does ring a bell) but hey I’m no hater, I trust y’all’s judgement, maybe I’ll get around to listening to them sometime. I’m really looking forward to it!

  15. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea Incredipete, … man, … did you just say ‘hawt’? *shudders with uncontrolable fear for your future heterosexual relationships* That is not a positive bro. Eat more drugs. You scarin’ this sister.

  16. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete I’m pretty sure that the Kansas motto is “Huh?”

  17. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Wendy Some things are not even funny. But you are right, Kenny C is h- o – double t.

  18. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Josh Groban is hawt! He and Kenny Chesney… I’m starting to doubt my heterosexuality.

  19. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Jackie True MAF, true.

  20. maf
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: maf like HRT doesn’t have josh on a continual loop in his car AND sports the i love josh stickers!

  21. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Wendy Well it sure as hell looks like I am late for this party!

  22. HRT
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: HRT Btw. Who the hell is Josh Groban…

  23. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Your adorable little sister Josh kicked butt..and I got everything they were selling, so i can look like a Josh Groban freak. You should never be ashamed to like him, for, you must admit, he is the most beautiful man alive. I told you Abby would end up sleeping in your bed. You should bring her over tonight. Next time you’re having a nervous breakdown, come on over, and i’ll smack you…then we can watch something cool and you’ll feel ALL better. Who needs a doctor when you have me, anyway?

  24. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Nero Well I’m glad to hear that you’re feeling better. Unfortunately rumours are things that happen when people have nothing better to do, so I’m assuming it’s slow at work. At least you had your friends to help you out. Abby is a little darling.

  25. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Teets I’m glad you are doing well now. It’s no wonder you burned out there for a little while. You had way too much going on. That’s enough to drive anybody over the edge. Your body knew it had to wait until you accomplished all that stuff before it could relax and flip out. Pretty good, huh? About the Josh Groban concert: I’d go to one in a heartbeat and it is one of my major pet peeves when people rudely get up and leave before the end of a performance to beat the crowd. They should be beaten by the crowd! I agree, it is lame lame lame lame lame! Your puppy is very cute. I’ll be she can’t believe her great fortune.

  26. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea Bad nails, mabey it was the lumber… whatever the case – you found the right glue… us. Sometimes the strongest thing I can find around me is the weakest to the untrained eye… my daughter. No matter how many times I felt like I was going to vomit after fighting with theEx, or how many times I’d burn french bread cause I wasn’t thinking about making dinner in the least, I’d watch her laugh & instantly things were going to be fine even if it was only for a few minutes.

  27. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Was that some kind of new age psychological concept? I like it. Apparently my shelves crashed down one on top of another till there was nothing left but a flattened stack of shelving material and knick-knacks.

  28. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea I say yeah for little pills! Mental pills, pain pills, ones that make you larger… or the ones that make you small, there is a place for everything in life, it’s all in how you stack your shelves…

  29. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Well, MI, even if there is something wrong, it’s nothing that a little pill can’t fix… regardless you should probably talk to your doctor. You’d be surprised…

  30. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: mentalimages I hate to step out of my ordinary jacket of wit and funniness, but i feel the need to say a true thanks. I myself, as of this very god damn moment am feeling the same way you were describing. I felt relief that someone else had been through it. Then i felt totally fucking freaked out that something may be wrong with my blood. So thanks a bunch pal for scaring the shit out of me. (See how i slipped that jacket back on?)

  31. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: sappy HRT…the sequal Ok ok ok. Let’s face it. We have here a collection of some of the coolest, albeit messed up mofo’s on the planet. But the cool thing is we’re all fine with it. That’s part of the deal you see. It’s not about being messed up or not being messed up. WE’RE ALL MESSED UP, the cool well-adjusted ones just recognize it and accept help from wherever it comes.

  32. Wen
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Wen Congratulations on making it through your mid-twenties breakdown. A lot of people have them. I did too. And our stories are surprizingly similar. I broke down in my office, put my head down on my desk and sobbed for four hours before I could pull myself together just to get to my car. It was an awful experience.

  33. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: thea Sup X? Incredipete not that our circumstances were alike, but I feel the same way on a weekly basis. I just ended a 1yr. & 8mo. divorce, moved into a new place w/ just my little girl, had to re-furnish an entire place, … pay for it all… and work 3 jobs in the mean time. Sometimes shit just cathes your ass … like a dog… then you gota grab it, & shake it off. Or get the good meds & take a long nap in the shade. Cute pup.

  34. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Yes, mofo is alright. However, “aight” is not allowed.

  35. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Listen HX, I’m not the Confederate in this group. Why don’t you yell at all of your buddies from Virginia?! Kansas was a Union state…

  36. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Jackie First of all Incredipete- I am ashamed of you. Don’t ever make excuses for liking Josh Groban. SO NOT LAME. Second between your entry and Wendy’s it must be catharsis day on diaryland. I will tell you like I told her, we are all behind you. We are happy for you to succeed, and now you have more people to help when you don’t. P.S.–MAF good luck to you too- your a sweet ass mofo. (I’m allowed to say mofo too right?)

  37. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Humility X (formerly known by the ‘slave’ name HRT) Flagpole?!? Muthafucka you best not be raisin no ‘fedderate flags up that mofo unless you wanna get yo ass kicked….

  38. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete Thanks everybody. One of the reasons I started on Diaryland was to have a place to write about what goes on in my head… sometimes it helps just to run it up the flagpole.

  39. MAF
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: MAF ps – nothing wrong with josh groban at ALL. he’s an amazing singer – was listening to him in the car this morning.

  40. maf
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: maf 1. a that puppy is beautiful, and will be your best friend ever as dippy as that sounds … and c. i think it’s really cool that you shared all of that about yourself, I’m going thru some terrible stuff now and i had to admit that i needed help – it’s hard and scary .. but will be worth it. you’re lucky to have such good friends…and it also proves that you ARE a good friend too. and as far as nemo goes… here it’s ” offspring… jellyman…. jellyman … offspring” and the crabs. gotta love the crabs… ( well, you know what i mean )

  41. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Leah In our house, it’s “Fin! Noggin! DUDE!” Even when Anthony won’t hug or kiss me, he’ll do that. And glad you’re feeling better!

  42. November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: Incredipete My favorite characters in Nemo were the seagulls: “Mine… Mine… Mine. Mine. Mine. MINE!” LOL

  43. HRT
    November 30, -0001 at 12:00 am

    AUTHOR: HRT I like stories with happy endings…or in this case happy middles, cause the story ain’t over yet. 🙂 You rock dude.

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